I will write a full update and review on my Olympic trials shortly.
Unfortunately I was unable to produce the performances that I needed to qualify for a place on the Olympic team. I believed and was confident going in to the competition that I could be competitive and contend for a place on the team, however that was not the case. Needless to say I am very disappointed with my performances. As an athlete, you give all of yourself to your sport, when you compete and do not get the results you were hoping for, it is devastating. It is hard to describe the emotional pain, and not wanting to sound over dramatic, its almost like a little piece of you dies inside after a bad race.
There comes a point where you feel like you can not endure any more bad races and I think I may be nearing that time. I am going to take a bit of time off from swimming now. I have invested a lot in this sport physically and emotionally. I need to take a step back from the pains of this competition and see whether my heart still lies in the pool.
It will not be a decision I make lightly, and will have extensive discussions with my coach, family and friends.